paintedsickness

I go on without a thought of you, Ive erased you from my mind! Re-Created our memories together with a different face. I dont want you to come to me anymore. Find a different person to like to, to taunt to tease. Find a different person to torture. Ive moved on Im through with you Ive moved on and you should too.

You just dont get it. I thought Maybe you would. You just dont get it. I thought maybe you could. You just dont get it. I thought maybe you'd try. You just dont get it. If this is it then, ..Goodbye.

I dont understand why you feel this way. since you walked away, no ones left in my life. No one loves me. No one cares, yet again im left alone. Little cocaingel come rescue me.. Up my nose goes my best friend, Up my nose goes my life. Little cocaingel come rescue me.. I regret. I regret meeting you, I regret loving you, I regret everything about you. Wish my life was like before but now.. Little cocaingel come rescue me.. take me away from this horrible reality, my life. Take me away forever. Take me to my death. Up my nose goes my suicide. Now I can fly. I can become a cocaingel and bring others happyness, show them how to live

Memories flash through my mind, A mental slideshow. Silent, painfull and deadly I wish you could see.. Maybe then you could understand. Why its so hard for you and I to be. 50 thousand tears ive cried To many lies. No one can even try to understand. No one knows... Drowning in my past, Horrible memories. Remembering what he explained to me.. Fucking Bastard why\'d this happen? Why to me? Sick Sick Bastard. No self asteem. So dirty. I cant even stand to look at myself. Blurring and stirring to many thoughts in my head. Trying to forget the past. Trying to forget everything. I block it out. I dont want to remember. Im to

I look around And all I see Are People Prettier then me They\'re all so happy They\'re all so loved As into a corner I am shoved No one sees me All alone Blending in with The cold dead stone I sit there crying As they smile Ignoring my pain All the while I slash my wrists And bleed some pain As my tears Fall down like rain They\'ll never notice I am there They love themselves They\'ll never care I scratch it deeper A shredded scar A faded impression A dimming star I\'m drowning deeply In a sea of dispair Surounded by beauty That will never care

I cut away this flesh of mine, As I tip my glass of wine. Im a little wasted, My blood flows out I can almost taste it. Im sure the lookon my face must be pricless, Oh god how you must try this. It feels so great my skin is gone, But I keep cutting on. Untill all my blood is out upon the floor, I have dried up, I can live no more...

Ive gotten what ive waited for, But in the act of waiting, I found a new.. Another. Time clashed and brought me smiles But in the act of smiles I found Tears Of another. In my own bliss I can see What I have done Mistake or not, I do not no I thought I knew what to do. I no what I said But what I have not said Is what matters... I am happy as are others Yet some sit alone and feel ...nothing... I am happy as are others yet some have yet to seek revenge... I am happy as are others yet some will strike back I am lost.. Writing non sence to some yet other will understand....